So I guess it's been a bit since last I wrote. Not much has happened, and yet a lot of major decisions have been made. I go to school most everyday and have homework coming outta my ears. It's insane. I have 1 week left, then finals week. I have projects, papers, and homework. All stuff that will make me a much happier person to have finished. I have 1 major project all done and turned in, now I have 3 more to go...whipee!!! I'll be so happy when this term is over. It's kicking my butt. Spring term has always been rough for me. I'm all learned out and need a break.
I'm getting that in the form of I'm moving to Utah on the 13th of June. My aunt and uncle, Bobby and Peggy Muench, just recently adopted 3 siblings. As both of them work, and a baby sitter all day would be crippling financially, I was asked if I would like to be a nanny, of sorts, for them. It comes with free room and board, and they'll feed me! Plus I get to know my new cousins. It's a very exciting time for me. I'm really sad that I'm leaving Oregon. This is my home. It's where my family is, where my friends are. It's killiing me to be leaving them. I don't get to see them as often as I would like, as often as I'm used to, but I had the option of seeing them once in a while. Now, the distance will be too far for me to get out to see them. I don't believe that I will be able to see them until Christmas time. We'll be having Christmas at Lisa's house. However, I do believe that this move will be good for me. I'll be able to grow more as a person. i'm making a decision to do something that is really hard for me to do. I don't want to do it, but I know that this is the right thing for me to do. I'm hoping that I'll be able to meet others my age that'll help me to grow more in the Church, who'll listen to me and help me to understand the things that confuse me, that I don't fully understand. I've been working so hard on improving myself, and there is so much that I don't know, don't understand. I've been working on being able to go to the temple again. I'm so close, I think that all I need is the interview =D
Mom and Laura get here the 7th of June. I'm so excited about that. They'll be helping me pack and move everything. Holly and Gabriel are moving as well. They'll be going to Texas with mom and dad. I think that that is the toughtest part of this move for me. I'm going to be separated from my nephews. It already kills me to only see Elias once in a while. I see Gabe every single day. This will be the part that makes it the most difficult. I don't like that I can't see my nephews everyday, or as often as I would like. They are 2 of the most important people in my life. I love them like crazy. I'll be able to talk to them on the internet though. Webcams are amazing inventions. I recommend that everyone goes out and buys one, then we can all talk on the internet and not feel so far apart.
In other news, I had to sell my car. The transmission was starting to fail on me. It would go into reverse but it wouldn't stick. When I pressed on the gas, it sounded like it was in neutral. I ended up selling it for $400. I wish that I could have gotten more out of it, just for the sentimental reasons. That car was my grandma's, and it was given to me after she passed away. I have a few things of hers left, and that was something that always reminded me of my grandma. I know that it was just a car, and that they are somewhat easily replaced, but it was a special car. It's sad to know that she's gonna be taken apart and sold for her parts.
But isn't this a part of growing up. Doing things that are difficult? Moving, selling something important, going to school. These experiences have changed me for the better. I am finally moving in the right direction. I finally have my head screwed on right again. I know who I am and why I am here. I don't know everything, but what I do know, I know to be right and true. I have many more difficult moves to make in my life, but I think that these experiences have made it possible for me to now face them head on, to face them courageously. I know that I have a Father in Heaven who will help me to get through them. Just yesterday, my teacher told me life isn't fair, it isn't easy. It isn't, but I know that not only do I have everyone I know rooting for me, praying for me, helping me to improve my life, I also have a Heavenly Father doing the exact same thing. I am truly blessed to have the things in my life that I do. Life is only going to get better from here!!
