Today my co-worker, who I'm starting to consider a friend, were having a nice long discussion at school. We were talking about men and how sometimes, they just don't make sense. A couple of weeks ago she had mentioned something about hooking me up with her brother. I laughed about it, thinking that would never happen, and promptly forgot about it. Well, I guess she did mention it to him. However, being a man, he wouldn't go on a date with me because I'm not under 150 pounds. Apparently, he's a rather large man himself. I don't get why men are like that. I understand if you have a healthy body you'd want someone similar. Even if it's purely a physical thing I understand that. However, when a large man won't even think about dating someone like him, it kind of boggles me. Believe me I understand about attraction, but sometimes it's incredibly shallow and it drives me bonkers...and it hurts a bit.
Which leads me to turning this into a good situation. I kept thinking about it and it was hurting me a bit. I was wishing that she hadn't told me what her brother had said, but in the long run, I'm glad she did. It gave me something to think about. I'm not happy with my body or my weight. I signed up for a Powertone class next semester and at first I wasn't looking forward to it, but now I am. It's time for me to change and get healthier. It's going to be extremely difficult. Part of the reason that I'm overweight is because 1) I'm completely addicted to food and 2) I'm an emotional eater. I also don't work through my cravings. If I have one, I satisfy it with the unhealthy food. I need to satisfy it with a healthier option. I'm also very lazy. I want to get out and go for a walk, but that would require me getting off of my butt and going outside. I need to push myself until the urge to be lazy goes away. It's going to be a long and difficult journey, but I can do it! I know I can! I just may need some help and encouragement along the way. I have a goal of loosing 100 pounds. I would rather loose inches than pounds, but I don't know my inches size, so for right now, it's pounds. It seems like a lot, but I know that I can loose that. I don't want to set a specific date or time like 100 pounds by the end of next year. I will set myself up for failure that way. I'm ready to start, but I'm going to wait a bit to actually begin. With this being the holiday season, it seems a bit ridiculous to begin right now. I'll be smarter about what I eat and maybe add a little more exercise into my life, but I'm not going to go on a full diet yet. I'll keep you guys updated!!
